My name is Ryan "China" McCarney and I have lived with anxiety since 2009. I was 22 years old. My first panic attack occurred that year when I was with my then girlfriend and we were on our way to a family gathering about three hours from my house. About 45 minutes into the drive I felt as if I was going to die. I could not breathe and had to pull the car off the road and walk for hours to try and catch my breath in the fresh air.