I've been feeling very down lately. I feel like I'm ruining my relationship because I can't seem to control my thoughts or feelings. I'm always afraid something bad is happening, I'm doing something wrong, or that I am not enough. When I have good thoughts in my head I seem to start thinking of all the negatives of why I am being so positive and making myself believe I can't be happy or I don't deserve it. I feel like I'm pushing away the people I love because I can't control my thoughts or feeling. I've been trying to take the steps to help myself be more controlled and positive but I'm having a hard time finding anyone to talk to in my area, they are all way out of my price range and I'm feeling very lost. If anyone has any advice or words of wisdom they would be greatly appreciated.