I'll try to make a long story short.
My wife tells me I am wound up tight. I didn't realize so much until I started having these "spells" the past several weeks.
I basically am "on" almost 24/7. I tend to put all of my tasks, things left undone, things to come, etc in my mind and I jumble them all up. I also feel every task is a mountain and I praise just a little effort, even if it leaves the taks undone. I also have moments where I fear things that will never really happen, like something happening to my precious little daughter. When I get called into my bosses office, I immediately fear the worst even though it isn't bad and I got a glowing review and atta boys often. I don't know how to relax. I am also VERY plugged in with technology. I have two PC's, a smartphone, tablet, tons of music and playlists I manipulate, keeping up with Facebook, E-Mail. I tend to have my tablet / phone with me at all times and always want to glance at it. I also am needing to learn programming languages (I am the only IT guy at my work) that I am basically way behind on. I also have a Daddy's girl who needs me at every turn. While I do teach her that she can often play alone, I try to be there for her within reason.
I've not slept well for years, and I've been off and on Ambien for a few years.
I am also co-founder of an all-volunteer theatre and I often direct / act in the shows. 2012 started with me directing and acting in two major sh