! continue to write since I hve none to spealk too. I suffer from depression, panic, agoraphobia. I have been having panic. attacks for many years and they went untreated. finally got a little help/ Mostly I self medicated with alcohol. My attacks were once a 1 week a month it varied and now I have them mulitple times a week due to the noise and activitiy out side and stress. My tremors and fear turn into frusttion and agitation. I dont like to be around people, noise. I stay indoors 99 % of thr dat time. My neighbors think I am wierd. I know they are watching me. some times I will peak out the drawn curtains make sure no one is there. My fear turns to anger and i wcan seriously hurt someone. i am suicidal and I think about it daily. I cant help. I have even been in hospital lock up. Anyone there?