Can't take the anxiety anymore!!
I began having anxiety attacks over 20 years ago and have been on and off a very mild dose of Klonopin ever since. I have good years and bad years, good months and bad months, good days and bad days. Right now my anxiety is pretty much back in full swing. I have seen therapists, did bio feedback (which did help for a while), ordered Lucinda Bassets dvds (also seemed to help for a while), tried yoga, deep breathing etc etc. I think and was told that most of my anxiety stems from having had ovarian cancer at the age of 18. I always worry that i will get sick again, however, I am not a hypochondriac. I do not run to doctors. I go for routine checks ups and thats all. I am happily married for 20 years, have two amazing children and am not depressed at all. On good days I am fine to go to work, go the gym and go about my daily routine. However, I am most comfortable staying home and always like to be as close to home as possible. I also feel most safe when I am with my husband and then can go anywhere. I dont get anxious on planes, I enjoy vacations but always feel happy to get back home. On bad days (more often than not lately) I do not want to leave the house, If I do (I often make myself do things even if I am uncomfortable) I always feel like I might get dizzy and pass out ( I never have before), I usually give myself an upset stomach before leaving and start to sweat and breathe erradicllly. Again, there are months when I am completely fine. I sometimes know what triggers a rough patch, for example seeing my father in law die of cancer a few years ago brought back many bad memories. My daughter starting to drive and getting ready to go off to college next year makes me unable to breathe sometimes. Then there are times like now when there is no real explanation. I talk to my husband and a few friends and my parents but no one can really help bc they have no idea what I go through on a daily basis. I have seen therapists and am not opposed to them, but don't feel I have gained any help from them. I have a really good life and dont stress about daily things. I can multi task like no one else, and usually once I am out and more comfortable with my surroundings I am ok. I just want to feel normal and not anxious s all the time. I am even willing to try a new medication even though I dont like taking advil. Is there anyone out there that can relate to me and give me some advice? I was also looking for a support group in the nassau county area of NY if anyone knows of any!!