obsessed with thoughts
i dont have insurance so im unaware of what my diagnosis really is, but i feel as if i have a little of everything. but for times sake i will only talk about the problem im am experiencing right now as i write; a thought that i think about countless times every day. every morning my very first thought is.. "im still here?" i am obsessed with the thought of "i wish i'd never been born". i know wishing it every day can never make it true, but every thought in my head about anything else is somehow always concluded with that thought. i wish i'd never been born. one example.. i could be thinkning about what i want to eat and itll lead me to think of how i must eat every day to stay alive which will somehow lead to death is inevitable which will lead to whats the point of life if we're all just gonna die which will lead to why must i have been born in the first place. I CANT STOP IT! DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS PROBLEM??