If anyone is to understand your needs, I would imagine this is the best place to start. I myself suffer severely from GAD and it's very difficult getting others to understand. I think that maybe speaking here and getting folks to talk to you here may do you more good than you might think. I agree with the last response to you about going to a clinic where you might get some medication to help you manage, but knowing that there's someone to talk to - or better yet someone that is willing to actually help you would really make a difference. I would make that a goal. Think about what friends you may have that are close enough to you, or good hearted enough to really care about your welfare and start there. Don't be afraid to ask for help. You don't know who will help, or what they can do to help until you ask. Yes, it's very humbling, but sometimes we have no choice. You can even try religious institutions, you may be surprised at what they can offer to you. I would however, analyze your relationship with your husband. I don't know the details, but why do you suppose it angered him when you wanted to leave? Could it be that he loves you and needs you and doesn't no how to show it? Do you feel divorce is the answer due to finances only? ....... Or is there a lot more to that issue? If so, I'm sure you would be better off getting out of there, especially if there are no children involved. The first step is the hardest, but things may improve if you can find a good soul, or a church, to help you get on your feet. I myself am still struggling with so much, but I know what you're feeling and wish you well. I hope at the very least I may have given you something to think about. I know finding the courage isn't easy, so start out finding a real friend.........