Hi everyone,
My name is Haley, and I'm 18 years old. Clearly most of you think I am too young to have any sort of stress related problems. And honestly I'd have to agree, but sadly I do. I have been having panic attacks a lot lately, not full blown ones, but my heart pounds and I can hear it in my eyes and I can actually feel myself getting hotter as my heart races faster. I'm assuming that's an increase in my blood pressure. My life isn't so much stressful really, I am just from my understanding really depressed. I'm constantly thinking negatively, and anytime I think a happy thought a negative one comes along after it to take my euphoria away. I have xanax for my anxiety, but I rarely take it because it makes me sleepy and have that overall drugged feeling. I just want to calm down, and think more pleasant thoughts. I've had panic attacks for over a year now, I've been depressed since I was a child really. I'm not sure why honestly, I've had a nice life. Great family and parents. So why am I so negative, and why have I always been so negative?